Former Today host Tamron Hall just became a mother at 48, but she kept her happy news secret for a very long time. Hall didn't reveal she was expecting a baby until she was 32 weeks pregnant.
The public figure revealed to PEOPLE why she chose to keep her pregnancy secret. She wasn't sure her delivery on April 24 would ever come.
“I was high-risk, not just because of my age, but there were other medical factors too,” Hall told PEOPLE in an interview for her cover article.
She continues, “I was terrified I would lose this baby and I would have to go back and tell everyone that now it was bad news, and after this pregnancy had gone so far.”
Some people chose to share news of a high-risk pregnancy so people can support them if there is a loss. Others wish to keep their pregnancy a secret so they don't have to discuss the situation after a possible loss.
“I just wasn’t mentally prepared to deal with that,” Hall shares. “That’s why I waited. And trust me — if I could’ve gone the whole way to delivery, I would’ve.”
Thankfully, she didn't have to face that pain. She and her husband, music manager Steven Greener, welcomed their first child in April. They named him Moses.
This was Hall's second try at having a child. She tried fertility treatments in her 30s, but she was unable to conceive a child. When she tried again in her 40s, she felt even less hopeful.
“I knew that the clock was not on my side,” Hall admits. “When I tried in my 30s, I still felt like I had some time, and the fertility clinic felt like a bright room. In my 40s I saw all the gray: The faces looked gray, the walls were gray, nothing seemed shiny and optimistic.”
This was also a time where Hall was looking for a job and not having success. Now, she has a child and a job. She's starting own syndicated talk show, premiering Sept. 9.
“My story is not one I could’ve ever expected,” Hall shared. “Two and a half years ago when I walked out of that NBC building, I was in a fog, not knowing that so many of us lose things we think are important, and we have no idea that something better is right there.”
She concluded, “I’m from the South, and there’s a saying: ‘It’s not a setback; it’s a setup for something else. That loss set me up for, yes, a dream job but also my baby, my husband, my family. I just couldn’t see it coming.”