Madisson Hausburg Courtesy Madisson Hausburg/Instagram
Four months after Madisson HausburgA stillborn son was delivered, the Siesta KeyStar spoke candidly about her marriage to husband Ish Soto‘s struggles to conceive.
“Trying to conceive is so hard,” the MTV personality, 28, captioned a Thursday, April 28, Instagram Story of a negative pregnancy test. “After Elliot died, the only hope I had left in my heart was to have a living baby someday. Seeing this negative result again … and again … rebreaks my heart all over. We were able to get pregnant with Elliot after our first attempt. This is why it’s so frustrating, confusing, and difficult. I really let myself get my hopes up this time.”
The reality star asked her social media followers to “refrain from” telling her to “relax and just let it happen.”
The Florida native explained, “I promise I have already heard it 100000000 times. Telling someone to relax doesn’t actually make them relax. It just makes them feel bad about not being relaxed. That’s literally not how it works.”
Haussburg and the 48-year-old producer announced in August 2021 that they were expecting their very first child together, before their wedding.
“We are beyond excited to finally share the news of our baby, due January 1,” the pair said in a statement at the time. “We already love this little baby so much and can’t wait to meet them.”
Hausburg posted via Instagram four months later that she and Soto had left the hospital with only a box of memories after suffering a stillbirth at 37 week.
“It’s true what they say about there being no greater love than a mother’s love,” she wrote in December 2021. “And there is no deeper pain than losing a child. Every day I wake to the horrible reality that I will never get to hold or kiss him again in this lifetime. I am devastated. I love you, I miss you, my perfect little Elliot.”
Last month, Hausburg was given “the green light” to start trying to conceive.
Madisson Hausburg, Ish Toto Courtesy Ish Soto/Instagram
“Am I ready? No, I am utterly terrified,” she wrote via Instagram in March. “After Elliot’s death, I don’t think I will ever be truly emotionally ready to be pregnant again. But I have this deep need to be that I can’t explain. It’s extremely difficult to navigate motherhood without your baby. Kissing Elliot’s cold, hard urn every night is a stark contrast to kissing the soft, warm cheeks of my baby boy. There’s a hole in my heart that will never be healed, but I hold hope that motherhood won’t always look like this for me.”
