The title and lead single of Reneé Rapp’s debut album, Snow Angel, was impressed by probably the most troublesome experiences in her life that has since left her feeling “resilient.”
The singer, 23, recalled being drugged throughout an evening out with pals on the Monday, September 4, episode of the “On Function with Jay Shetty” podcast. Recent off a breakup in early 2022, Rapp stated she started hanging out with a brand new group of cohorts.
“I had at all times needed to, like, actually nail myself to the bottom, and I had at all times been simply so extremely nervous, and for the primary time, I simply didn’t,” she defined to host Jay Shetty. “And I actually let my judgment go when it got here to the those that had been round me.”
Following a number of conditions the place the group proved to be “not reliable,” Rapp stated she discovered herself “face-up, laying down in a rest room stall in a lodge bar, simply waking up at, like, 5 within the morning, fully alone.”
She continued: “I nonetheless don’t know what occurred, no clue what occurred, however I used to be drugged and simply, like, lacking for seven hours. And I ended being pals with these individuals and stopped doing as a lot partying as I used to be and informed my dad and mom, informed a few of my pals, and simply sort of defined it in a extremely matter-of-fact manner. And so they had been all very involved, and I didn’t even actually perceive what was occurring, as a result of once more, I didn’t recall something that had occurred.”
It wasn’t till just a few months after the incident that Rapp stated she started to “deal” with the aftermath of it, noting, “[I] was simply crying and so upset and really confused, after which resentful ‘trigger it was pals that I used to be with.”
Rapp — who introduced in June that she could be leaving Max’s The Intercourse Lives of School Ladies throughout season 3 — felt impressed to jot down a tune in regards to the expertise with producer Alexander 23 for her first full-length album, which was launched on August 18.
“The entire time we had been writing it, I felt nothing. Nothing,” she famous on the podcast. “I used to be explaining all these items, and I used to be like, ‘Yeah, and you’ll reference the snow as no matter you wish to reference it as,’ and issues like that, and I felt nothing in any respect till we had recorded the tune, the entire thing was achieved and I performed it for a bunch of my pals and my supervisor. And all people was like, ‘That is insane.’”
The lyrics of “Snow Angel” seemingly element her journey of overcoming trauma, as she sings, “I’ll make it by way of the winter if it kills me / I could make it quicker if I hurry / I’ll angel within the snow till I’m worthy / But when it kills me, I attempted.”
The Imply Ladies the Musical star referred to as 2022 her yr of “inherent resilience,” as she informed Shetty, 35. “Not solely was I preventing by way of an expertise I don’t know what occurred to me, misplaced pals, felt like I couldn’t exit with anyone and belief anyone … however [I] was additionally afraid to be judged to have one thing like that occur to me but it surely’s additionally like, ‘What did occur?’ So, it was a complete factor up till we determined to call the album Snow Angel and have that be the tune, that to me was all resilience.”
On the finish of the day, Rapp stated she nonetheless “doesn’t actually know find out how to really feel about it,” however she does “really feel bizarre and resilient.”