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It was a scary moment in their relationship. Machine Gun KellyHe recalls an incident in which he considered suicide while on the telephone with Megan Fox.
The “Emo Girl” singer, 32, detailed the crisis in his new Hulu documentary, Pink is the new lifeThe film premiered Monday, June 27. Colson Baker, a Texas native, stated that the dark moment occurred in July 2020 after the death of his father with whom he had just reconciled.
“I wouldn’t leave my room and I started getting really, really, really dark,” the Adolescence in the Big TimeThe film features a star who is recalled in the film. “Megan went to Bulgaria to shoot a movie and I started getting this really wild paranoia. Like, I kept getting paranoid that someone was gonna come and kill me.”
The “Papercuts” rapper went on to say that he always slept with a shotgun near his bed, but that day, he “just f–king snapped.” He called Fox, 36, whom he’d met in March of that year while filming Midnight in Switchgrass.
“I was like, ‘You aren’t here for me.’ I’m in my room and I’m, like, freaking out on her,” Kelly recalled. “Dude, I put the shotgun in my mouth. And I’m yelling on the phone and, like, the barrel’s in my mouth. I try to cock my shotgun, but the bullet just keeps getting jammed. Megan’s, like, dead silent.”
The Billboard Music Award winner said that the moment made him realize that “something is not right.” The Jennifer’s Body star and Kelly’s daughter, Casie, 12, intervened and helped him figure out that he needed to make a change.
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“[They said], ‘I want to, like, see you as my father’ and ‘I want to see you as my husband-to-be,’ and I was like, ‘I need to kick the drugs for real this time,’” the “Bloody Valentine” musician said. (He didn’t say if he was using drugs during his incident.
Kelly later shared his story with the world. InterviewMagazine that he was seeking treatment to treat substance abuse and mental disorders.
“Currently, my drug of choice is happiness and commitment to the art, rather than commitment to a vice that I believed made the art,” he explained in November 2020. “I’m taking steps. I had my first therapy session on Thursday. That’s the first time I ever went, ‘Hey, I need to separate these two people,’ which is Machine Gun Kelly and Colson Baker. The dichotomy is too intense for me.”
Two months later, the “Maybe” artist told fans that he’d been taking a break from social media while he worked on himself. “I just wanna say to my fans I’ve been in, kind of like, a f–ked up place personally for a couple of months in my head,” he said in a January 2021 Instagram Story. “So, I haven’t been that active on socials.”
The DirtActor shared his excitement at the success of his project Downfalls HighThe movie, which had just premiered, was called. “I’m, like, tripping out,” he added.
Kelly and the New GirlIn January, the couple got married. Three months later, Fox gushed about her fiancé in an Instagram post shared for his birthday. “The world has no idea what a gentle, beautiful heart you have,” she wrote at the time. “How generous and how thoughtful you are. You are so bizarrely intelligent, smart, and witty. You are far and away the most unique human being I have ever seen. You’re such a gorgeous soul. I’m honored to love you and to be the recipient of your love.”
Call 1-800-273-8255 to report suicide thoughts of someone you know or yourself.
