Are you ready to relive the past again? Holly Madison Bridget MarquardtAre you rewatching Girls Next Door — and it isn’t easy for the former girlfriends of Hugh Hefner to relive their Playboy pasts.
“Holly warned me that the first three episodes were really hard to watch. And when she said that, I thought she just meant, like, kind of just getting used to watching them again and once you get past three episodes, you’re good,” Marquardt said during a joint interview with Madison on the “Juicy Scoop With Heather McDonald” podcast on Tuesday, August 16. “I just watched them not last night, but the night before. And I’m still traumatized. I’m sick to my stomach. I can’t sleep, I’ve been crying.”
Girls Next DoorStarred also by. Kendra Wilkinson, aired six seasons between 2005 and 2010. (The three women quit before season 6. Marquardt, who is revisiting the show for her and Madison’s “Girls Next Level” podcast, told Heather McDonald that the “way we were portrayed” is upsetting her.
“They make it look like Bridget is, like, plying all the new playmates with drinks to mess them up for their shoot the next day because she’s jealous,” Madison said. “Which isn’t what she said at all, but they cut and paste it. So it looks like she’s literally trying to, like, shove shots in everybody’s face because she wants to sabotage. And I think that’s messed up and borderline illegal.”
Marquardt added that she wanted to be Playmate of the year “so bad” before she officially started dating Hefner so it was “really hard to watch” other women get the gig.
“They just took that made it look like I was ridiculing everybody that came that I was just this jealous bitch that I was getting people drunk and sabotaging their pictorials,” she said. “And even little things too. There was tiny things that at first when I was first watching it, I was like, ‘Oh, they’re just trying to be funny in the edit.’”
When Marquardt noted that the pair were “immediately made out to be bitches,” Madison chimed in, “They never did that to Kendra. Ever.”
The former costars also went down memory lane via A&E’s Playboy secretsMadison struggled to catch up with documentaries that Madison had seen earlier in the year.
“They did 12 episodes. I watched every episode, except episode 2. I don’t want to watch myself talk about my trauma again. I can’t take it. But every other episode, I watched — and it came out over the course of 12 weeks. I had nightmares after I watched them,” she said on the podcast. “I had a nightmare I was back at the mansion every single night after SPlayboy’s secrets.”
Hefner died in September 2017, at the age of 91. The docuseries contained a series involving allegations against him. PlayboyHundreds of former Playboy employees, models and Playmates signed a letter calling the accusations “unfounded.”
Scroll down to see more from Madison & Marquardt, including their views on several claims.