Two totally different experiences. Holly Madison mirrored on the “unlucky” rift between her and Kendra Wilkinson after their time on the Playboy mansion.
“I want she was extra open-minded to the truth that not everyone had the identical expertise she did on the mansion. And I went by a whole lot of various things and needed to cope with much more simply being the primary girlfriend,” Madison, 43, solely advised Us Weekly whereas selling her new Investigation Discovery present The Playboy Murders. “And I used to be there for 4 years earlier than she ever got here alongside.”
The Oregon native, who dated Hugh Hefner from 2001 to 2008, famous that everybody has their very own tales to inform. “I needed to cope with a whole lot of drama with Hef and different girls and issues like that. It’s unlucky, however, you understand, she has to study what she has to study on this lifetime. So we’re all on a distinct path,” she added.
Madison confirmed her assist for Wilkinson’s public determination to not talk about her time on the mansion. (The Kendra on High alum, 37, who moved in with Hefner in 2004, was additionally featured on The Ladies Subsequent Door alongside Madison.)
“I’ve heard her say that she doesn’t like speaking about Playboy stuff and simply type of desires to maneuver on. So I undoubtedly respect that as effectively,” the Down the Rabbit Gap writer shared with Us. “I’ve been in that part in my life earlier than and it’s actually laborious as a result of it’s type of all anyone else desires to speak about. I undoubtedly respect her determination, however she is welcome to return on if she ever desires to.”
The Kendra Sells Hollywood star beforehand weighed in on her former costar’s determination to brazenly talk about each adverse and optimistic elements of Playboy. “It doesn’t make sense. None of it is sensible,” Wilkinson advised Us in November 2021. “As a result of I’m dwelling my life, I’ve executed my work and [I feel] God blessed, I don’t actually know what to say or do.”
In the meantime, Madison revealed its taken years to work by the “trauma” from her time at Playboy.
“I’m type of cautious about after I speak and in what context,” she defined to Us, noting that she was “reawakening her trauma” by discussing her previous. “I knew that so many different girls have been coming ahead with their tales. I wished to be supportive of that as a result of I do know what it feels wish to be one individual popping out and with no person supporting you.”
For the Holly’s World star, going through her time with Hefner has additionally been a significant emotional impediment.
“For thus a few years — after I was dwelling on the Mansion — I at all times had this picture of Hef being this superb individual. Any issues I blamed on the opposite girls, I used to be like, ‘Oh, effectively they’re simply terrible,’” she recalled. “However in fact, that wasn’t the case. And through the years and proper earlier than I left, I simply realized how a lot he was pitting us in opposition to one another. Which was actually hurtful to me as a result of I’d at all times approached the connection as like making an attempt to do the very best I might.”
She continued: “So realizing that he was doing these sorts of maneuverings behind my again was actually hurtful. I imply it was undoubtedly him. … It’s a whole lot of manipulation.”
Madison and the late journal writer break up in 2008. (Hefner died in 2017 at age 91.)
“There have been so many instances I used to be actually near leaving all through the seven years and ultimately, it occurred. Hef simply obtained actually verbally abusive to me, to the purpose the place I simply couldn’t stand it anymore,” she claimed. “The opposite women had left and I used to be the one one there, which is what I had thought I had wished for thus a few years. However I used to be additionally the one one on the opposite finish of him taking out any of his frustrations. I simply couldn’t cope with it anymore.”
The TV persona has lately turned her concentrate on initiatives such because the ID sequence’ The Playboy Murders. By collaborating within the upcoming exhibits, Madison was capable of finding out extra about what others went by.
“After I was approached about doing this present, I used to be given a deck with an outline of all of the instances in it. I used to be actually compelled by it as a result of not solely are these extraordinarily attention-grabbing instances and all six are very totally different, however I had by no means even heard of most of those instances,” she mentioned. “I assumed I knew every thing about Playboy historical past and every thing that occurred to each playmate, however I’d by no means heard of those. So I used to be extraordinarily intrigued and I knew this was the kind of the present that I might wanna watch whether or not or not I used to be concerned. In order that was a particular sure for me.”
Dying by Fame premieres Monday, January 23, on ID at 9 p.m. ET. The Playboy Murders will comply with at 10 p.m. ET and will likely be obtainable the identical day on Discovery+.
With reporting by Christina Garibaldi
