A spiritual journey. Justin Bieberrevealed that he struggled to accept the fact that his marriage to his wife was ending. Hailey Bieber (née Baldwin) wouldn’t instantly make him a better person.
“It’s a journey. I remember when I first got married, I hit a little bit of an emotional breakdown because I thought marriage was going to fix all my problems and it didn’t,” the “Sorry” singer, 28, told Apple Music’s Ebro DardenIn an interview that aired on Tuesday May 3. “It just kind of was a reflection of like, ‘Man, you’re a bit of a hypocrite, man.’”
He continued: “You want your wife to do something that you’re not doing and it’s like, it’s hard sometimes to look in the mirror and really have to realize, ‘Man, maybe you’re not the person that you necessarily thought that you were.’ And that’s just a result of trauma and life circumstances.”
Justin credits his faith in God and his spirituality for helping him to overcome his past and become an even better husband. “But for me, obviously, I’ve been so just very public about my faith journey and how my relationship with Jesus has helped me to just not be so hard on myself,” the Drew House founder explained. “Just the idea that I’m forgiven and that he’s walking me through this journey and day by day, I get to just get better and better and not be too hard on myself.”
Both Biebers were open about the hard work they put into their relationship, after they tied the knot at a New York City Courthouse in September 2018. “When we first got married, we were just figuring out our life together. I felt like putting a wedding in the middle of all of that would be really hectic and stressful,” Hailey, 25, told ElleIn March 2020 they discussed why they waited to have an even larger ceremony. “He was dealing with a bunch of medical stuff. We didn’t have a diagnosis. And it was hard because everybody from the outside was being super mean and judgmental, saying he looked like he was on drugs, saying how unhealthy he looked, when in truth, he was not healthy, and we didn’t know why.”
Justin revealed in 2020 that he was diagnosed as having Lyme disease. “Now he’s perfectly healthy,” she told the outlet. “But going through that and then trying to be like, ‘So where does our wedding fit into this?’ didn’t feel like the vibe at all.”
Justin’s mental and physical health struggles took a toll on Hailey in the first year of their marriage. “I remember I called [my mom] a few different times … crying, and I was like, ‘I just can’t do it. There’s no way that I’m going to be able to do this if it’s going to be like this forever,’” the model recalled during a November 2021 appearance on the “In Good Faith with Chelsea & Judah Smith” podcast. “And I just remember she was so calm on the phone, and she was like, ‘It’s going to pass, you’re going to be fine and he’s going to be healthy and we’re here for you.’”
Hailey continued: “But I also just think I was in it. I made a decision. I know for a fact that I’ve loved this person for a very long time and now would not be the time to give up on him. I just wouldn’t do that to him.”
Justin said that their relationship was successful because Justin worked on himself and found ways of supporting his wife. “I think it was just time that healed things, just us showing up for each other every day, being consistent, me seeing that she wasn’t going anywhere,” the “Love Yourself” singer said at the time. “Just her just continuously showing up every day and being there for me. I kept seeing it over and over again. And it just became more secure, and more secure with where we’re at in our relationship.”
