A little over a month has passed since Joey Feek passed away from cancer. Rory and his two year-old daughter, Indiana have been bravely coping with their heartbreaking loss.
“I miss my wife. I miss my best friend. I miss her voice and her laugh and her eyes and her smile,” Rory wrote on his blog. “It’s still hard for me to imagine that she’s not her, and she’s not ever coming back.”
“A lot of people ask me how I’m doing,” Rory wrote. “I usually try to smile and say, ‘I’m doing ok.’ And I am… okay. I feel so many emotions all at the same time. Blessed. Lost. Proud. Scared. Encouraged. Tired. Thankful. I have a lot of good people around me and they pour love all over Indy and I. It’s hard to be in this old house without Joey, but I know she wants us here. And I know it’s where we need to be.”
In the presence of the pain and uncertainty that comes with losing a loved one, Rory has made some small changes around his house to help him cope. “I moved our bed to a different part of the room,” Rory wrote, “against a different wall, because I needed it to be different. I sleep on her side of the bed now. I can’t sleep on mine.”
Everything at this moment in time is a constant reminder to Rory about his loss. “When people come to dinner and they sit in Joey’s chair, I want to tell them not to sit there, but I don’t. But I want to.”
Despite the pain, Rory remains strong for his young daughter, knowing that someday the pain won’t be overwhelming. “I know that time will make it easier,” Rory wrote. “Because that’s what time does. It heals what is broken. There will still be scars, but I know there will come a day when I won’t miss her this much, when I won’t wonder where she is and what she is doing right now in heaven.”